There won’t be a shower

So I guess I didn't scare you off, huh? Good! Welcome back!

Today was supposed to be the day for Sissy’s baby shower. I planned it with good intentions and even postponed it for a month when it wasn’t working out the way I had hoped. It’s mainly my fault because I didn’t put as much effort into it as I had planned but with the way my daughter has behaved over the past 9 months I just didn’t have the heart for it.

I was against this pregnancy from the beginning. Hell, I was against her even seeing this baby’s father and although I didn’t go so far as to forbid her from seeing him – we all know how that works…it doesn’t – I did ground her when I caught her lying to me about some things that involved him. Rather than abide by my rules and adhere to the grounding, she chose to run away then lied about it and told everyone I kicked her out. So she went to a foster home where the parents let her do her own thing and apparently “doing her own thing” involved running around with this boy, hence the pregnancy.

I made it clear that coming home was not an option because I do not have the room, the money, or the energy to have a baby in this house. And when I found out that she was not only dating someone else but that this new boyfriend was, in fact, the foster dad’s son and he was living there and they had lied to her caseworker about it, she was removed and put into another home.

I tried to come to terms with the pregnancy and began preparing to accept her and the baby into my home. This is where planning the shower came in. I can’t afford to buy her all of the things that the baby needs so I decided to use what I had – my blog, some marketing, some advertising, some bartering – to help her out.

I have asked her several times to come spend some time over here to help me plan this, to explain to her how blogging works, to show her how fortunate we were that we would be able to do this. But because of this controlling boyfriend who treats her as his property and makes the decisions about where she spends her time, it never happened.

After we got into it about this boyfriend, about her role in this family, about the expectations I have on her if she plans on living under my roof, I decided not to put any effort into the shower. She was under the mistaken impression that this shower was nothing more than “your friends sending you shit.”

The lack of gratitude she has shown makes me ill. We have always been poor yet somehow both of my older kids have developed this attitude of entitlement. Its both disappointing and embarassing. I am absolutely ashamed at both of my kids today and I have informed them that our family Christmas celebration this year will consist of Santa Claus coming to visit Princess and nothing more. I will go through the motions for the little one’s sake and make the best of it but aside from that I have absolutely no holiday spirit thanks to Sissy and Bubba.

So the shower is canceled and so is Christmas. My most sincere apologies go to the sponsors who were generous enough to help. I will return the items to you within the next week. Just email me your addresses since I didn’t keep the packaging with the return addresses on them. I will create a space on my Link Love page just for you as my way of saying “Thanks anyway. I really do appreciate it. And I’m sorry.”

I’ll come back and add links later but for now, I just wanted to get this out. I’m just so deflated right now I don’t even feel like messing with formatting this post.

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A whole week of reviews and giveaways

Two things you should know:

1) I have been very busy over the past two weeks with some work stuff, some personal stuff, and being sick. (I quit smoking to get healthy and right after I quit, I get sick. Figure that one out.)

2) I have been very fortunate to have some amazing opportunities to do some product reviews and giveaways.

Now let’s do the math. Busy/sick + lots of reviews = I am way behind on posting reviews and giveaways.

So I decided last week that I would make make this week “Review-a-palooza” and make the daunting task of catching up into something FUN for me and for my fans readers. (That’s why you haven’t seen many posts from me lately. I’ve been writing the reviews during my usual blogging time but not publishing them so I could save them for this.)

Stay tuned and pay attention! There just might be something in it for you!

P.S. I’m also going to be doing some more recruiting for Sissy’s Baby Shower, so if you or someone you know has a pregnancy or baby related product to donate or even if you just want to contribute a gift in exchange for some linkage, let me know!

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